The funny thing is I figured that out over a decade later, I believed that those thoughts were my thoughts. I also had a delusion that I have long legs and I bought some pieces of female clothing and other stuff. I listened several times and I found myself thinking I was born a woman and even wondered if I have a p*ssy later after that. But honestly I did not believe it works and I thought if it works it only lasts for the duration of the 30 minutes hypnosis. I remember that over a decade ago I found a hypnosis video on youtube. As you can imagine, it was a time filled with anxiety. Probably it was curiosity paired with bad influence from p*rn sites. This included joining transgender forums, because i slipped into sissy p*rn. Later at university I unfortunately started my bad habits again. It did not last very long but it was a good relationship. This is probably the reason that I also met my first steady girlfriend at that time. On the other side I started p*rn induced self harming behavior, which I could stop years later.ĭuring my time in the military I had little to no access to p*rn, and it made me a stronger person. It was something that was probably connected to a bad childhood experience that I do not remember anymore, but I was told about it. I started crossdressing for fun, nothing serious. Even during school I watched extreme p*rn and I was masturbating compulsively several times a day. It started with softcore and evolved into different fetishes. Later I accessed p*rn over the internet, which was a novelty back then. I do not know if the owners of the shops thought that I’m older or that they frankly did not give a f*.

I even bought magazines in shops when I was about 14. I first came in contact with p*rn when I was about 12 (I’m 33 now).

I hope that my success story will serve as a warning, but will also give those hope who went down the same rabbit hole. I did not realize that I had a problem until I almost had a mental breakdown induced by those files. Unfortunately I used those kind of hypnosis files for a very long time. It can be explained as media that destroys lives, produced by malignant people without any ethics or morals. Some of you may or may not know what this is, but if p*rn is an illness, sissy hypno is cancer. I started my healing journey 1,5 years ago after a traumatic “sissy” hypnosis experience.

Sissy hypnosis